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15% Deal For Gucci Items

Here's the deal for local Singaporean buyers only.
Every month, 2 slots [or more, i'm considering] will be opened for 2 lucky buyers to get items from Gucci at a discounted rate of 15%. [regardless sale/non-sale item]

However, buyers are to provide the following:

1. Availability of item from DFS Gucci
2. Product Code/Colour/Price [if possible]
3. Name/Contact Info

Last but not least before anything is being purchased, full payment is needed.
I will provide my particulars as well as my home address.
And payment will be made via POSB Bank Transfer in SGD cash only.

Your items come complete with everything [receipt with name/contact info/card no/expiry date/price blanked off']

If you accept all terms & conditions, please mail your orders to shopaholicjoe@gmail.com.

Eye Candies

I can't help but drool over the men's day. simply cause the bag is such a beauty.
i was seriously hoping that balenciaga would stock up more of the men bags here in Singapore.
but i'm not complaining especially when there's erica to help us out with our bbags craze!

the older design.

Men's besace
i came across 2 of them over at aaron's shop, and he's selling them for 999sgd.
[which i'm not really ready to pay for as yet.]

last but not least!!!
Extra Courier
and its in my favourite BLACK!
i'm so gonna get my hands on that!

royalty

i'm back to this blog after god-knows-how-long :)
and i must say that i don't really miss blogging, simply cause..
i'm too lazy to do so.

But..
i have been shopping. and i will continue to shop for as long as i live!

the balenciaga craze has gotten into me.
and it's an expensive addiction!

Hiatus

after the relatively short hiatus. i am back to blogging.
and its not because i was bored or anything.
but i guess i just needed an avenue to express myself.

many things happened.
mostly good.

my trip to bangkok was a really successful one. and i thought i wouldn't enjoy my bangkok trip.
boy was i wrong.
shopping was just celestial, and not forgetting the super friendly and hospitable thai crowd. 
the best thing was that we visited bangkok during the Song Kran phase, which was their new year or some sort. so we had to avoid certain places, lest we get drenched right down to our boxers. lmao.

the trip was a well spent one. thought it was pretty last minute, it was something i needed.
an escape.

oh well, i must look forward to what's up next. the month of may.
a month i should love
but i am not feeling too good about it.
don't know why, but its definitely not the emo vibes.
just a gut feeling that something bad will always happen.

DIE. i am turning into this pessimist.
:/

oh and damn the stupid weather. its driving my skin crazy. 
now i need to depend on my precious skincare to protect thyself from the insane weather.
and as i am blogging, i am enjoying the cool yet DRY breeze of the air condition.

someone buy me a moisturiser please.......
HAHA

only hope

so much to say. so little time.
all i have to say is that i may have found the one i have always been looking for. 
i am keeping my fingers crossed this time.

cause it is coming at a very weird time.
when i have almost wanted to give up.
i hope it really works out good.

yawnnsss

ermm. its has been quite some time since i updated my blog. kinda lazy i must admit. some gains, some losses. but i am seriously not complaining. 

met up with a totally cool group. HAHA. wilson, jolene, jayden and song hua and we can literally hang out anywhere and anytime. and that would seriously explain why my transport expenditure is so crazy.

my bro and my evil twin are the best! :)

met up my big o korean grandma-ish bro at city hall, and  guess what we ate?! something you will never imagine joey the lam eating. MUSHROOM soup [and its not just mushroom soup but the bits and pieces of brown shitake mushrooms] Then we toured round marina square chatting about random stuff. it was seriously what i wanted. an elder brother to go out with. he's uber awesome! and i meant it.

and not forgetting the wonderful tanning session i had with jimmy over at sentosa cafe del mar. AWESOME sun and the best part of it all. no one to bother us, and a whole lot of bitching and gossips. HAHA! i hope you pick yourself up from the fall you had real fast, and let's go shopping again! no more river island, pull & bear and ZARA. fugly fashion apparels. and the pathetic state we both were in by the end of the day. RED, red, and more redness on our skins. did i forget to mention that we were both burnt?

and it's jimmy's birthday! and not forgetting my neighbour-ish friend, wesley who is suffering from a high fever. get well soon! you still owe me a dinner outing. :/

and finally the highlight of the day. my unexpected outing with my EVIL TWIN, aka same name, JOEYthe[devil]. i finally got a chance to meet him up, in his full bitchy form and we did have hell of a time chatting, more bitching and some random shopping. HAHA. he terms our purchase as slutty shorts. which i actually thought was pretty funny. why slutty? ain't it sexy? HAHAHA. and yes, how can i end the day without any form of shopping especially after the really bad episodes which i am about to elaborate pretty soon. fourskin shorts at 50% off! 24 bucks for a pair. AWESOME.

finally..

to those who are in search of the special someone, never ever think that your special someone would be really far away, cause you will never know that he/she coupld actually just be right in front of you. oh well. i just wanted to type this lil paragraph in to end this summary in a positive light. i guess i am gonna try stay optimistic, and support the people around me. 

gonna revive my gym classes after stupid paragon finishes their renovation by sunday! dang. and more sun tanning [provided i dont turn indian/malay after several sessions] and last but not least catching up with my friends!!!!!!!!!

heart

when will the heart ever find its way back?

especially when the roads are filled with

temptations

how will it ever know which way to go?

i guess its not that easy.

but i hope my heart find its way

even if it takes some time

it doesn't matter

what really matters

is the final destination.

Searching god

as the angel reached into god's pocket

in hope to find some love

god smiled and said

why are you searching for love when its not ripe yet

the angel was scared

god sat up and patted on angel's head

it will come one day, and it will be meant specially for you.

because it was meant to be so.

cry

there's something about irvine that draws me.
perhaps its the tune.
here's part of the lyrics that meant a little.
tho fully EMO charged.

you are warned. emo boy alert.

lyrics

Why is it so hard?
Why can't you just take me?
I don't have much to go 
Before I fade completely

...

Are you there? 
Are you watching me?

and yes thats what i did.

i cried.

at marley & me.

Kelly Clarkson - Cry

If anyone asks 
I'll tell them we both just moved on 
When people all stare 
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk 
Whenever I see you 
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue 
Pretend I'm okay with it all 
Act like there's nothing wrong 


Is it over yet 
Can I open my eyes 
Is this as hard as it gets 
Is this what it feels like to really cry 
Cry 


If anyone asks 
I'll tell them we just grew apart 
Yeah what do I care if they believe me or not 
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart 
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all 
Act like there's nothing wrong 


Is it over yet 
Can I open my eyes 
Is this as hard as it gets 
Is this what it feels like to really cry 
Cry 


I'm talking in circles 
I'm lying, they know it 
Why won't this just all go away 


Is it over yet 
Can I open my eyes 
Is this as hard as it gets 
Is this what it feels like to really cry 
Cry

a moment for thanks

i am really blessed

just because

i have 2 

bros

1

older

the other

way way younger

i love the both of them

simply because

they love me for who

i really am 

and I

do not need to pretend

to be someone I am not

and not forgetting the twin that i always knew i had!

P.S: he's a devil, and i like it :)

letting go

i guess i am in the mood to just post one final installation of the little boy's story.

and this time, its his past.

Letting It Go

once upon a time

there was this little boy

who never said what was on his heart

instead, he said the opposite of what he meant

one day the little boy met a stranger

but it wasnt the stranger who caught his attention

it was this person, S

who had the strangest expression.

in the end, they both fell in love

they had a good time

they spent quality time together

it was a memorable time

but things changed

many things happened

hearts were changed

trust was betrayed

the little boy still chose to remain silent

his mouth speaking what his heart did not mean

tears did not fall

sadness was quiet and careful

with her way in the little boy's heart

but he knew his heart had grown cold

the little boy decided it was time

to free his cold heart

and perhaps to grant S a simple wish

something the little boy wanted too

freedom

letting go

宅宅

they said that lollipops are express remedy for those who are down.

and i wonder how true,

especially when taiwanese drama 愛就宅一起 mentioned it too.

i guess very soon, i'll end up being a 宅宅 too. 

town, a strange place

today was another experimental day. i finally went down to town to meet my friend. i guess it must have been a really long time since i ever stepped foot onto town. everything felt different. i guess it must have been the age. i no longer have the burning desire to sweep the whole town out with my shopping frenzy. or could it be some melancholy left within me from the last incident?

i travelled down to cathay and guess who i bumped into? tingting and vanessa goh! omg. it has been like light years since we last met. and they could recognise me the moment i stepped out of the lift. as we were kinda late for the movie, so i didn't have the luxury of time to catch up. but in short, i do miss the secondary school days. when i was so young.. so innocent, and most importantly, carefree without much to worry about.

oh and "PUSH" was pretty good i must say. i enjoyed the effects of the movie, and not forgetting to mention the classic facial expressions from these villains. priceless i must say. and i am more than often tickled by how spastic they can really get. oh and i didn't realise that the little girl was the lead actress from Charlotte's Web. chris evans was as usual, looking good in whatever that is thrown on him. LOL.

and afterwhich i followed nicholas to vivo where he met up with his other friends whilst i headed wanting to pay cavan a visit. but guess what. that stupid fella was not working!? yeah. so i shopped around a little. bought stuff from various shops. and i realised that zara's stuff is becoming a little trashy. i dont know if its because of the season, or its just some post sale thing, but the clothes are seriously weird, and the funny thing is that singaporeans still crowd the whole boutique. 

and headed to Pageone where i tried to finish my read on Stephanie Meyers' The Host, which was pretty interesting, considering the fact that she no longer employs the usage of vampires or werewolves in the plot. i couldn't manage to finish, but was pranked by dumb nicholas who decided to give me a scare just as i was looking out for him. HAHA. 

yeap. nicholas if you are reading this, i had a nice time. thanks. tho i was left loitering around vivo for quite some time. HAHA.

i did not follow songhua and co to club. i guess i had enough for the day.

Flavors Of Life

One of my favourite cereal of all time.

fruit loops.

and the best part about it would be the different colours and flavors

[tho i can't really taste the difference]

when i was really young, i would pick out the purple ones and eat them all up.

reason simply because they are grape flavored [according to my mum]

any reason why i blog about this? 

hmmm.. nah, i just love fruit loops.

and i guess i am gonna keep my focus back on my studies and forget about relationships and stuff. since i dont really have the luck :) i guess i will stick back to my roots and see where i go from there. heh. 

afterall, i'm the unbeatable songbird. HAHA. 

i will not be defeated!!!! 

Reasons Why

The Many Reasons People Give For Things That Dont Work Out

i am too busy

i am too tired

i cannot cope with it

we are too different

you did not give enough attention

we have different values and beliefs

we cannot agree on the same thing

you forgot about our anniversary

you missed my graduation

i hate your kind of lifestyle

i cannot tolerate your certain habits

and the list goes on..

but i guess the most important thing people often miss out would be that fact that they themselves are at fault.

author's note:

when faced with such situations, i would always try to take the blame first. which is mostly true. if only you will take some time and evaluate what you have done. you would realise the root of the problem lies in you. I have learnt never to shun problems or leave them be, same goes for the blame. i rather take them all. because most of the time, it's indeed my fault.

a pint of milk

milk

warm and careful

safe in arms

slip of fingers

bottle falls

pieces of bottle

fell on floor

milk on floor

i bent down

tried my best

piecing them back

fingers cut

tears fell

heart aches

no salavage

no bottle

no milk

just pain

blood

tears

me

i

a lesson learnt

i just came back from a small lil drinking session. LOL. the vodkha was disgusting, and the bailey's was fine but mild. gone were the days when drinking was meant to be enjoyed with friends and all. now, they are the very instruments used to drown my immediate sorrows.

oh well, but i did not get what i wanted either ways. i remained sober whilst my other friend was drunk. or should i say, DAMNNNNN high [since he didn't want to be labelled as drunk] 

mod, if u are reading this, don't kill me. but you were really funny. you were basically laughing at every single damn thing that i said, and you were walking in this swaying manner. but thanks for accompanying me. at least i felt a tad better after which. perhaps i have understood the necessity to move on and stop pondering over the issue. it will only worsen the already strained friendship. 

hey!! but you owe me one for sending you ALL THE WAY HOME TO YOUR FREAKING DOORSTEP!

i shall end my entry with the final installation to my little narration. this time i am writing it with slight sense of despair and perhaps a little tinge of nostalgia. similarly i wrote it with LOVE ME by Yiruma running on repeat. [i told u i am emo, didn't i?]

A Lesson Learnt

time passes ever so slowly

and finally it was time

time for the little boy to say goodbye

even if it hurt so much

he told himself never to look back

cause if he ever did

he will never find the strength

to move on

so he took a piece of paper

and ever so carefully

he folded it into a little star

and gently kissed it with his trembling lips

"'tis i grant you

the strength to find your love

that one fine day

you may be loved, as i was

may you find your way

to the deepest skies

for then i truly understand

i was just part of the journey"

the little boy walked gingerly

towards the edge of the hill

and threw the little star 

towards the direction of the wind

he never wanted to let go

but he understood that

by holding on,

it was mere possession

as the little star drifted with the winds

the little boy shed a little tear

as he whispered ever so softly,

"its okay"

as the wind gently consoled his broken heart

she whispered a little tune

holding onto a beautiful melody 

and the familiar words that echoed

"its okay to cry a little

its okay to stay here for awhile

its okay to hate m a little

its okay to miss m for a little"

the little boy collapsed

into his now trembling, icy cool knees

for whenever a lesson is learnt

there's bound to be pain.

Author's note:

i ended this short narration with a lesson learnt, in hope that similarly, others will learnt from the little boy's mistake and not hold on tightly to whatever that is gone, and move on. for you will never know what's meant for you until you have reached the end.

may you find shelter and solace from the music just as it has healed my soul.

i still believe in love at first sight, not because i am willing to allow myself to be hurt again,

but for the fact that i still yearn to find the person who is made for me.

just for me.

untitled

Untitled in my heart

those very moments were all that matter
even for just a little while
for when i finally have the courage
i will look back for awhile

it's okay
that's what you would often say
until this very day
in my heart, i would always play
it's okay
when will you see me again?
if it's ever okay
i hope we will still be friends

written on 4th march 2009
inspired by a segment of my own memory.

my puny little human soul

i could not find an avenue to voice out or even vent out my pent up emotions.

everything's trapped in my helpless human body.

and i hate feeling helpless

and to make things worst, even my parents are trying to make me feel better.

to those who were worried for me, i am so sorry.

i never wanted you to see me like that

so fallen, so defeated

i guess i need alot of time [to be honest]

to pick myself from this mess

and while i continue to confide in the little boy,

may you find peace in the story.

narration continued..

the second or should i say the continuation?
but i was in the mood to write on especially after listening to so many inspiring yet sad music.

My Night Skies

the little boy prayed earnestly

that one day m would be like before

smiles on the face and the nearly hidden eyes

coming back to pay him a visit

however an angel dropped by one day

with hands as icy cool as that of m

he soothed the little boy's aching heart

and sang ever so gently

my silly little boy, o silly one

how can your heart be so unguarded?

and how are you to capture a shooting star

when it has not reached its destination?

the little boy knew the answer

m was never meant to be for him

m's smile, m's icy cool touch, m's tight yet careful embrace

they are all but polite gestures to welcome a stranger

small trinklets of pain started falling

fron the windows of his heart

what was empty before was filled with pain

like that of thorns to bare flesh

the little boy smiled with tears in eyes

as he bowed his head to pray

with utmost sincerity and honesty.

for hope that his father in heaven would listen

dear daddy in heaven,

thank you for the angel

thank you for m

thank you for my heart

thank you for the hills

thank you for the stars

thank you for the night

thank you for the time i have with m

daddy

protect m at all times

protect m's fragile heart

protect m's icy cool hands

protect m's warm embrace

protect m's charming smile

protect m's careful feelings

and daddy,

wherever m goes, i ask of you to be there

guard m's heart

do not let m be hurt

this i ask in daddy's name

amen.

the little boy now knows the answer

but still chose to keep m safe in his heart

love is never about leaving things be

its about taking chances even if it risks losing it.

a special birthday

happy birthday to ezekiel.

one of the few who actually tried cheering me up.
and i appreciate it alot.

a note to remember

i came across this quote whilst browsing randomly. and i thought that it was really meaningful. 

"I come with a past. We all do.
It's a package, one that I'd like to share with you, but you can't pick and choose.
You get all of me."

Piper Halliwell, Charmed

a small narration

i have written a small narration to go with Yiruma's music playing by my blog.
I put 'Love Me' by Yiruma on repeat as I wrote this.

a short note:
from time to time, i will actually write short extracts of mini fiction.
this was written on the spot as i listened to the music. and to be honest, i actually broke down whilst penning this. perhaps it was the pent up emotions that caused it, in any case, hope you enjoy the read.

Starry Starry Night

once upon a time, there was a little boy
who always believed that he could smile his worries away
and most importantly,
he did not believe in love at first sight

one day, he agreed to meet this very particular stranger
he calls, m
he wasn't too sure, neither was he expecting much

and as he draws his heavy foot towards the destination
clad in utterly simple apparel
he waited patiently.

the bus arrived after quite a wait.
m stepped out
the little boy was surprised
he knew it was something more than just anticipation

time spent with m was amazing
worries were forgotten, breathing was made much easier
the stars seemed a lil more prettier
the grass they were lying on was softer than any texture created.

m's hands were a tinge of icy cool
and they cooled the little boy's warm little palms
m's soothing yet cartoon-like voice 
almost coo-ed the little boy to sleep as that of a lullaby

and comes the unexpected act
when m was caught unaware
the little boy kissed m...
he knew this would change everything
but he still did it.

the little boy knows
it was more than just excitement from the first encounter
it was something more

they stayed til late.
the little boy knew that time was running out
and if m left
there would never be the second chance

but still..

the little boy accompanied m all the way
his lil heart filled with warmth and joy

as m ran off to catch the train
the little boy stood and watched the train leave
with an unspeakable surge of melancholy

the little boy knew he should not have done it
he shouldn't have said what was in his heart then

as after the little boy did so
things were never the same again.

in every conversation there was a void
a space so vast 
such that the little boy was lost in it

there was an unmentioned sense of awkwardness
tho m remained polite
the little boy could sense it coming.

rejection was subtle as it can be
though it pierced through the little boy's once cooled heart
for it could no longer be,
not without m's icy cool touch

now all the little boy could wish for
is not for m to love him in return
but to forget those lil silly things he did when they first met
if ever it's possible

he wanted m as a friend
who can lie down beside him and admire the stars
someone who will cool his warm lil palms
someone who will listen to the stories no one bothered to listen
someone who never complains about the pricky grass

so one rainy night,
the little boy went back to the same hill
laid down on the same exact spot
and looked up into the skies
as he carefully whispered

twinkle twinkle lil star
how i wish to be where you are
staying up above so high
belonging to m's one and only sky

Showcasing

I am finally making my youtube account official. 
the above clip is an attempt at leona lewis' yesterday.

sounds kinda raw, but i guess i love singing without vocal adjustments. 
so if my voice goes off a lil, forgive me :D

This is done a year ago. one of the earlier videos that i uploaded.

All By Myself 

Hero Piano Remake

a friend once told me

to be honest, i have been feeling lousy. my mood is way low, and no matter what, i cant bring myself to travel further than my secret hideout. just the day before, after sending off my friend who dropped by to visit and noticed my extremely perturbed expression. i guess my issues are better kept with me, rather than to make someone worry.

after which, i made my way to my secret hideout. perhaps some of you would actually know where it is. it was raining before, so the smell of rain is still evident, with the grass soaked wet. on my way, i noticed that very big board from the housing development board.

here comes the bad news.

apparently they are planning to build a series of condos just right in front of innova junior college, and this would mean that the area would be increasingly populated. and so would my hideout.

gone were the days when i could just take time off my hectic schedule and scale up the slippery slopes and get myself all comfy on the hilltop. soon that very place would be invaded, and it irks me.

along the way, i snapped pictures with my pathetic cybershot. [1st gen somemore.. WTH]

and finally when i made my way up to the top, i realised that this was not the only issue bothering me. and that i was just using it as an excuse to be down. I sat down, closed my eyes and enjoyed the cool breeze.

her gentle hands brushed across my tear-stained cheeks
with a gentle whisper, she soothed my despaired soul

the stars were spectacular that night, and i was putting a particular song by fish leong on repeat. i guess that's the typical trait of an emo kiddo. HAHA. the song was entitled, "不是我不明白"

i have not felt like that for the longest time. i've always been that happy go lucky fella, smiling away. even if the world were to fall on me, my optimism would be sufficient to pull me through. but i guess i was wrong. all it takes is one particular catalyst to bring about that change. but i guess it wont be appropriate for me to elaborate, and it's no point.

but ironically, i had a lil with myself getting my feets soaked in waterlogged grass patches before heading home with that same heavy heart i started out my journey with.

i will end the entry with a quote my friend always like to say.

what's meant to be, no matter what happens, will still be yours
what's not meant to be, no matter how hard you try, they will never be yours

just before that i was having a silly thought, and that if i try hard enough, perhaps what i hope or wish for could actually come true. but my friend really did shake me back to reality, although it really did hurt alot.

but it was a good experience, and it reminded me that i still do have a heart, and feelings.

A Moment In Time

it's the title track of Kevin Hoo's album. and I was just having random thoughts of how it would have been like if I hadn't chose to leave then. I guess it must have been the excess time that i have at hand. i am back to square one, having my thoughts run all over the place. and most importantly, i can't seem to know where my heart is anymore.

it's a phenomenon my friend call, "Path to self-discovery"

i really should go straight back to my books and not have those strange thoughts. cause the more i think about it, the more i am sucked into this almost-dreamlike dimension. [and yes, i mean my almost real imagination]

employment express

today was a day dedicated to me sourcing for a suitable job. and i guess it must be the long break that i had, which made me a lil lazy. Went to bakerzin, and thought the working environment there would be perfect since its small and the manager's such a sweetie.

but the pay is somewhat miserable. SERIOUSLY. but i guess i could live with it, since i am looking for something that is pleasant and most importantly near my home.

and i made someone accompany me, since the person is near the vicinity.

I WANNA WORK NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and get some money. HAHAHAHA.

REcruited

and i guess work starts now. i am gonna get myself employed after a long extended rest. HAHA. and i am not looking forward to it. if not for the money aspect, i would have never wanted to end this so-called reverie that i am in. WAHAHA. i am so gonna get killed by my mum if she ever sees this.

and yes, my dad changed his car. how saddening. that means we cant spend much. HAI
and ebay just have had to suspend my account for my listing policies. WTH.

it has been a week or so since i returned from taipei and i am missing it. i guess that will be the only asian country i would miss. perhaps korea too since rae's there. and talking about him just brings back weird weird memories that i cant bring myself to think about. HAHA.

then i shan't talk or think about it.
at least not now.

Oh and i found a friend who lives just across my block :D and a brother!! WAHAHAHA. u will not believe what happened within this short span of time

sporty valentine's

it's a very different valentine's day for me. especially when its fully outdoors and i mean, under the hot sun. haha. yes, i spent my valentine's day in pasir ris park. and i really enjoyed it. though my thigh muscles ached a hell lot, and my polo shirt was drenched with perspiration. 

and fancy someone riding a bide with cheap monday's denim shorts with ralph lauren polo carrying onto a louis vuitton bag? WTH?! but i did.

it was a memory worth keeping and remembering. for it was well spent. :)

this year will be an eventful one for me indeed.

Memoirs Of Taiwan : Piping HOT

we had our very first dosage of hot spring in taipei, Beitou. quite a quick journey and not forgetting the beautiful scenery that is so readily available. just a peep away, and you have picturesque views of mountains, hills, and little shophouses [that kinda reminds me of hong kong] and the constant appearance of convenience marts [and yes, it's our one and only 7-11] 

we changed into the bathrobe, and let me tell you a secret. it has always been my dream to be clad in a bathrobe. HAHA. i never had such an experience though I am always seeing other people clad in their bathrobes, soaking themselves into the hot spring and etc.

The family portrait all clad in bathrobes.
notice how mine is conveniently drooping off. LOL. it was not done on purpose k?!

Look at the tempting hot spring. and i am missing it already!!!!oh and the water's a piping 41.6 degrees.

get your bathrobes off your body!!
lets get naked!! HAHA

Bathrobes all off and sexy ready.surprisingly, my complexion looked really good here.and kok weng captured a rare footage of my smile.my smiles rarely got to that stage where it is complete. HAHA.

i really love the hot spring, though it gave me a really bad headache/fever the very next day. but it was an experience that everyone should go through. tho getting naked in front of friends for the first time might be a lil awkward. HAHA. but it you can get past that very stage, the next few moments are just pure relaxation.

and most importantly i miss the company i was with.

taiwan and the memories

its the 2nd trip and i am still in love with the country. 
and i am sure i will be back to visit for the 3rd time.

not forgetting the million photos that we took during the trip there. i do need time to process all of them. WAHAHA. 

and that stupid unglam photo of me in the hot spring taken by the stupid china-man, aka kok weng. ARGHHHH. reputation gone down the drain.

but the important thing is that i do love travelling and will continue to do so. 
next stop, Bangkok/Rendang island, and then EUROPE!!!!

attention: and whether i really did yearn for it?

2009 has brought about her own fair share of issues for me. but i could look upon it as a good phase of my life. just that i am not used to it. meeting new people and crossing the divine age of 21. GREAT.

but its funny how others would say i look younger than my actual age. and yes, its a compliment. :D
but then they added the following statement, "You look 16.."

16? do i really look that young? urgh. 

but honestly i get to meet really nice decent friends and that's great to know. tho its funny to know how some are just entirely exclusive. [yes, i am ranting, so pardon me]

forget about the bad stuff, i am going to make sure 2009 starts right and goes the right path. TAIWAN!! cant go any wrong. tho my budget is set and i am so not going to overspend this time. the temptations there are too much, and i have had to control myself.

oh, and i just finished watching Bride Wars. woo~ acted by Anne Hathaway. i still find her kinda pretty. especially her beauty adverts. and the movie's as predicted. chick movie with lots of catfights but i guess i can live with such movies once in awhile. helps perk up the day. and the ending narration which reminds me of the desperate housewives kinda ended the movie well. :D

have got to finish watching my movies, changeling, seven pounds, curious case of benjamin buttons!

RUN

leona lewis is simply amazing. :D
she turned a snow patrol classic to something of her own. and i love it.
she's absolutely pretty here. HOT HOT HOT. and the way she whistles her every single note is simply amazing.

gonna rush for a family dinner later. yet again. that's a simple drawback of a HUGE family.
I am compromising the time I would have spent with my friends.

Accomplishments

i finally revived my mini lil blogshop after a long time. but no longer on blogspot. :D but on ebay. wanted to try an overseas kind of thing. yes, indeed, Singaporeans and their never ending questions on the delivery, price, and yes DISCOUNTS. what the freaking hell.

oh well, but at least I am able to get back on the working path and stop slacking around. and i guess my next best buddy would be my laptop? haha. and i even gave him a name. ladies and gentlemen, let me introduce to you BUZZY.

and indeed, I have broke my bags ban yet again. can't blame me if i just so luckily won the bids from ebay. haha. and michelle's gonna kill me. fancy a keepall 55 for 645sgd? fret not, being a louis vuitton junkie i am, i would be able to differentiate from the real deal and the fake. it has a receipt! box and dustbag. woot!! but i have got to shop for the luggage tags and the handle clasps. dang!

2ndly, it would be the Yves Saint Laurent denim suede sling tote. WOOT! lucky me for not getting it when it was for sale in Singapore for about 850? my parents and gabriel kinda discouraged me from the buy. why pay so much for such a bag? and they are damn right! and thank god for them man. HAHAHA

now i got it just for 307sgd? authentic stuff for that price. HOT.

lastly the mulberry bayswater. something i kinda regret especially when i got the wrong size. its a normal bayswater. which makes it kinda small. arghhhhh. hopefully its not as small as i envisioned it to be. cause i really love it. and its aint cheaper either. dang! thought I could take advantage of the weak pound, but apparently, i bought it when the pounds appreciated. good timing huh?

oh well, enough of shopping days. :D

here's a song i really love back then. and even til now.

unite us in peace

recently, i have been meeting up with different groups of people for all sorts of reasons. and not forgetting the wonderful birthday celebration we had for josiah at the cathay ashton's. i always thought that it was a surprise. haha. didnt know that josiah knew of the plans already. 

must be the age huh? all too overgrown for surprises. LOL. but i am kinda glad that i turned up. if not i would not have realised how much i missed all of them. they looked pretty much the same. hahaha. cindy, nic, weichang, mel and josiah. oh and i didnt know the place was Ashton's when i was there with my ex. weird but now that i mention it, i no longer think of the past. which is great :) but kinda heartless.

oh well, things have to move on yea?

and not forgetting my reunion with my AUNT, gina and her beau, Danny. hahaha. quite a funny couple they are seriously. didnt expect her beau to be someone that down to earth and most importantly, decent :D kudos for finding yourself a good man huh! time for you to give yourself a new facelift le huh?

and i am looking forward to new year and after which, TAIWAN!!

for my dear..

i travelled all the way from my beloved hometown woodlands to tampines. and yes if you have wondered why, its to meet someone who often travels down to woodlands to find me. and i thought it would be good to return that very favour. :D

but thinking about it. its not a favour. i did it out of my own intentions. the desire to meet you. although the bus journey was a torment. with rp students crowding it. and its funny how they sleep in the buses. hahaha. i should have taken pictures of their expressions. seriously. shan't laugh at others since i do not have very good sleeping poses either.

cafe cartel yet again. and talking about it, i have been to most cafe cartel outlets in singapore. plaza singapura, raffles, marina square, bukit panjang plaza, junction8, serangoon circle, and now tampines. now where have i left out?

but that's not important. what's killing me is that they have ended the set meal offer. WHY?!?! that's why students are still patronising you guys! don't you understand?! soup at half price is not going to work wonders. although i adore the iced peach tea for obvious reasons. [and shuojie just has to spoil my impression of the nice tasting cool refreshing drink!] 

met ts' friend, richard. an interesting fella i must say. but the atmosphere was weird with the 3 of us at the same table. i was hoping for a lil 2-people-at-the-same-table moment.. hahaha.. but it was alright after all. i am a friendly guy huh? hahaha. 

talking about eye candies. i dont mind dropping by again if i get to see that smile. LOL. i am so gonna get killed for saying that. but dear, its true right? you do agree with me on that?

after dinner we sent richard back before we headed to Sunplaza park for some quality time. i can remember faintly of the memories in Pasir Ris Park where we had the leaders' retreat. the memories are great, though short-lived. i still treasure the past alot. we were swinging ourselves at this sandy playground which is a rare sight nowadays considering the fact that the government has removed sandy playgrounds for hygiene and safety purposes. which i think could partly be true. a lil sad tho as my memories of playground revolve around the sandy based ones. TS had a fair share of fun with the flying fox, making me the swing man. WTH? 

i had fun, and i was hoping that it would never end.

i love u. 

Knock on my door, would you?

somehow you will know it when it's at your doorstep. opportunity only knocks at your door once [or twice if you're lucky], and when it's gone, no matter how hard you try, it will never work.

that is something i have learnt.

i had an amazing day out. seriously. thanks. i know you are reading this. and i want you to know that you are an amazing person :) so stop emo-ing on your blog, and brooding over matters of the past yea? [lest i get jealous.. WAHAHA]

most importantly, i just want to treasure the present and be the happy person i am.

i have got to sleep. my skin is getting all dry and scaly from lack of sleep. all thanks to the reviving addiction to charmed, and now.. BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS. thanks to sharfa. hahaha. its amazing how i can own all the versions of this drama/anime. even the comic.

and i must comment on korean/japanese superb acting skills. i am taken away! almost natural. okay, i have got to rest.

til then, i await the knock on my door. when opportunity arrives, i will be sure to grab hold of it and not let go this time. if only relationships were that easy.. i would not have the fear of "feelings for you have gone.."

repent, joee, repent.

Flavour Of Life

i have been listening to this song, in the ballad version and i really loved it. i remembered how it was always played in the hana yori dango [jap version of meteor garden]

and i am now looking forward to the korean version of the same movie!!
and guess what?!?!

it's finally out in english subtitles on youtube and etc!
now it's gonna keep me busy.

Utada Hikaru - Flavour Of Life

ありがとう、と君に言われると
なんだかせつない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法
淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life x2
友達でも恋人でもない中間地点で
収穫の日を夢みてる　青いフルーツ
あと一歩が踏み出せないせいで
じれったいのなんのってbaby
ありがとう、と君に言われると
なんだかせつない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法
淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life x2
甘いだけの誘い文句
味っけの無いトーク
そんなものには興味をそそられない
思い通りにいかない時だって
人生 捨てたもんじゃないって
どうしたの？と急に聞かれると
ううん、なんでもない
さようならの後に消える笑顔
私らしくない
信じたいと願えば願うほど
なんだかせつない
「愛してるよ」よりも
「大好き」の方が
君らしいんじゃない？
The flavor of life
忘れかけていた人の香りを
突然思い出す頃
降りつもる雪の白さをもっと
素直に喜びたいよ
ダイヤモンドよりもやわらかくて
あたたかな未来　手にしたいよ
限りある時間を　君と過ごしたい
ありがとう、と君に言われると
なんだかせつない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法
淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life x2
おわり

a note i shouldn't have written

i knew this would happen one day. i anticipated it, and thus the pain is not too intense. somehow i had this strong feeling it would end up this way. perhaps you were right from the start. it should not have taken in that direction. but honestly i did not have any regrets. i thank you for giving me that chance, the experience, and most importantly the courage to go for what i really want.

but when i look back into the memories, i might still miss those very days. but the very least, i went for what i wanted. got myself burnt, hurt. 

i shall be a friend. and promise to stay by your side. and i will be a stronger person.

my 3 companions

my 3 companions since a young age. i remember buying the first one when my cousin had one. so i bought the entire collection including the little doggie keychains :) and i miss how me and my cousin would always play 'family roleplay' together with these doggies. HAHA.

those were the days.

the little nyonya

FINALLY, i got to witness the last episode of little nyonya after missing so many episodes, but thanks to youtube, i managed to catch up with the drama and eventually, got to know what was actually going on. i am glad mediacorp finally created a drama that is really worth watching, with all my favourite actors and actresses. woot woot!!

i really loved jeanette aw, although many often criticised her for cold attitude towards the public. hmmm. who cares anyway, if she can act, she can act. i really adore her role in little nyonya. and to be honest, i was a little surprised. the ending. didn't expect her to bring up robert zhang's son. oh my goodness. HAHAHA. hated his role in that show. ultimate bastard. but that just shows that he can act. he just has that villain look, that makes people wanna hate him.

now that the show has ended, channel 8 no longer has any tv serials that can draw my attention, so i shall retreat back to my cosy little corner of books and never-ending english serials. [yes, and at the cost of the rocketing electricity bills]

and today is the day you return, although i do not know if you will contact me or even drop me a message. but i hope you return safe and sound.

romancing home

hahaha. that is me and my doggie, Belle.

an expression of love.

been staying home nowadays. trying to stop myself from spending anymore money but it seems that efforts are rather futile. i am helping the economy to grow :) that's what singaporeans should do to support their own economy. haha.

my parent have been busy shopping around for their new year apparels while throwing their very own son together with their beloved daughter, also my pet, Belle. dang!

i would have died if not for the meeting just this evening at Causeway point, yet again. HAHA. but its okay, since there is a pasar malam near there. i have not eaten from pasar malams for god-knows-how-long man! and just mentioning ramly just makes me drool [tho now i am suffering from a slight tummyache from eating too much.. ]

i am weird. i am a chinese, but i hate chinese food. i adore western, indian, malay cuisine. just cant seem to bring myself to love chinese food? unless anyone can prove me otherwise. til now, the only chinese food i seemed to enjoy would only be the curry chicken, as well chicken rice. whahahah. my dad often says that i seemed to have an enemity with chickens. can't stop killing them.

ok back to the meeting. i am awlfully touched by your efforts to make a trip down from City hall all the way down to Woodlands aye, and then back to Tampines. seriously, its DAMN far. considering the fact that the waiting time in the bus/train and all. so i shall love you a tad bit more yea? haha.. and don't worry over those silly things and forget about that stalker friend. not worth fretting over.

enough said about others. shall return to my work. have yet to complete! the muse visits again, so i shall go on with my work! 

P.S: oh yes, go catch Let The Right One In. it's seriously good. simple story but well expressed. a word of precaution, those suffering from an overdose of Twilight would want to give it a miss first? or if you have those sweet notions that vampires are hot, handsome, drool-worthy guys, perhaps you wanna get those mindset fixed right first before catching the movie :) [tho i still would want the edward cullen sort of vampires around]

the reunion

our version of Bugsy

Lydia's new pet hamster. 

the long awaited reunion with Aunty Ivy and my cousins, Lydia Lam Dia Er aka the Pottey. HAHAHA. and laraine, lewis. it was a crazy meeting i must say. full of uncontrolled laughters or should i say roars. but strangely, i enjoy that feeling. its something i have lost throughout the years as i grow up. i lost that insane sense of humour as i grew older.

just look at the crazy shots we have taken. haha. kinda like the money pose that she did.

LOL. how ampt huh?

oh cuz, i want your postcards!!!! draw me a series, just for me?

pls pls pls??

yeah, and its amazing how Laraine, and Lewis have grown up. tho, they are still the same zany sort. but i guess it runs in the family.

oh, and aunty ivy. hmmm. never seem to grow old huh? hahahaha.

but she's such a dearie. will always remember the memories we had back at salem. totally priceless. oh, and i still have the tambourine. can't bear to tuck it away. 

the only regret is that we couldn't meet huiling and kaman up. if not, it would have been a full reunion with everyone. and should i say Seasonic Friends reunion? 

sounds familiar huh?

Belated gifts from 2008

yet another night that i seemed to be finding it quite hard to turn in, despite screamings from my mum. GOD SAVE ME man. she is really good at nagging.

i received both my purchases from ebay :) finally!! hahaha..

the first being the wallet from Prada [pictured above]. it's not for myself. just in case you thought i am a crazy person. why the need for so many different wallets. but then again, i wouldn't mind if i had another one more. :D it was purchased from a friend in based in Italy, so i can rest my mind at ease over authenticity issues. after all, ebay is a darn risky place for such purchases. but considering the fact that Singapore is such a lousy place for shopaholics, i shall have to make do with what i have! til i travel overseas..

well, the other is a personal purchase. something unexpected. but i bought it anyway. didn't cost me alot seriously. :) i am kinda going for bargains nowadays. somewhat like TARGET sort of bargain. it's a Yves Saint Laurent men dress shirt. something more to a yellow tone checkered top. been kinda addicted to Yves Saint Laurent ever since my parents brought me to the boutique. but their bags didn't really catch my attention. i kinda like the denim odeon sling tote, and the kahala in large. sigh. fancy paying a bomb over denim-fabric bags. shan't blabber on about bags. i do not want to enrol myself into a rehab for this bagaholic addiction. hahaha..

Kiss The Rain

This is something that i found on youtube whilst searching for Yiruma.



Kiss The Rain (Hienie Version)

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain.

Inspiring this

I was randomly surfing around, reading friend's friend's blogs and one particular one caught my attention. it's not the flashy pictures that he has posted. but the background music that he has placed in his blog.

The artist is a korean. They call him Yiruma. hahaha. funny how it sounds more japanese than korean. but his music is just stunning. captivating perhaps. i have been wanting to learn to play like that. his tunes are just so full of emotions.

previously i was introduced to his music from the movie, Twilight. that was when I heard his piece, River Flows In You. supposedly the track Bella's Lullaby originates from Yiruma's version. i really love Yiruma's version. Kinda heart wrenching, but the music is just so gentle. the funny thing is that his music does not need lyrics to convey what he has to say.

but here's a video of him singing.
a very heartfelt performance. and i really love his music!!!

that is what i refer to as truly inspirational. and that is what i need to keep my peace. pop and rnb is so over, i'm opening my heart to piano/inspirational pieces.