unite us in peace

recently, i have been meeting up with different groups of people for all sorts of reasons. and not forgetting the wonderful birthday celebration we had for josiah at the cathay ashton's. i always thought that it was a surprise. haha. didnt know that josiah knew of the plans already. 

must be the age huh? all too overgrown for surprises. LOL. but i am kinda glad that i turned up. if not i would not have realised how much i missed all of them. they looked pretty much the same. hahaha. cindy, nic, weichang, mel and josiah. oh and i didnt know the place was Ashton's when i was there with my ex. weird but now that i mention it, i no longer think of the past. which is great :) but kinda heartless.

oh well, things have to move on yea?

and not forgetting my reunion with my AUNT, gina and her beau, Danny. hahaha. quite a funny couple they are seriously. didnt expect her beau to be someone that down to earth and most importantly, decent :D kudos for finding yourself a good man huh! time for you to give yourself a new facelift le huh?

and i am looking forward to new year and after which, TAIWAN!!

for my dear..

i travelled all the way from my beloved hometown woodlands to tampines. and yes if you have wondered why, its to meet someone who often travels down to woodlands to find me. and i thought it would be good to return that very favour. :D

but thinking about it. its not a favour. i did it out of my own intentions. the desire to meet you. although the bus journey was a torment. with rp students crowding it. and its funny how they sleep in the buses. hahaha. i should have taken pictures of their expressions. seriously. shan't laugh at others since i do not have very good sleeping poses either.

cafe cartel yet again. and talking about it, i have been to most cafe cartel outlets in singapore. plaza singapura, raffles, marina square, bukit panjang plaza, junction8, serangoon circle, and now tampines. now where have i left out?

but that's not important. what's killing me is that they have ended the set meal offer. WHY?!?! that's why students are still patronising you guys! don't you understand?! soup at half price is not going to work wonders. although i adore the iced peach tea for obvious reasons. [and shuojie just has to spoil my impression of the nice tasting cool refreshing drink!] 

met ts' friend, richard. an interesting fella i must say. but the atmosphere was weird with the 3 of us at the same table. i was hoping for a lil 2-people-at-the-same-table moment.. hahaha.. but it was alright after all. i am a friendly guy huh? hahaha. 

talking about eye candies. i dont mind dropping by again if i get to see that smile. LOL. i am so gonna get killed for saying that. but dear, its true right? you do agree with me on that?

after dinner we sent richard back before we headed to Sunplaza park for some quality time. i can remember faintly of the memories in Pasir Ris Park where we had the leaders' retreat. the memories are great, though short-lived. i still treasure the past alot. we were swinging ourselves at this sandy playground which is a rare sight nowadays considering the fact that the government has removed sandy playgrounds for hygiene and safety purposes. which i think could partly be true. a lil sad tho as my memories of playground revolve around the sandy based ones. TS had a fair share of fun with the flying fox, making me the swing man. WTH? 

i had fun, and i was hoping that it would never end.

i love u. 

Knock on my door, would you?

somehow you will know it when it's at your doorstep. opportunity only knocks at your door once [or twice if you're lucky], and when it's gone, no matter how hard you try, it will never work.

that is something i have learnt.

i had an amazing day out. seriously. thanks. i know you are reading this. and i want you to know that you are an amazing person :) so stop emo-ing on your blog, and brooding over matters of the past yea? [lest i get jealous.. WAHAHA]

most importantly, i just want to treasure the present and be the happy person i am.

i have got to sleep. my skin is getting all dry and scaly from lack of sleep. all thanks to the reviving addiction to charmed, and now.. BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS. thanks to sharfa. hahaha. its amazing how i can own all the versions of this drama/anime. even the comic.

and i must comment on korean/japanese superb acting skills. i am taken away! almost natural. okay, i have got to rest.

til then, i await the knock on my door. when opportunity arrives, i will be sure to grab hold of it and not let go this time. if only relationships were that easy.. i would not have the fear of "feelings for you have gone.."

repent, joee, repent.

Flavour Of Life

i have been listening to this song, in the ballad version and i really loved it. i remembered how it was always played in the hana yori dango [jap version of meteor garden]

and i am now looking forward to the korean version of the same movie!!
and guess what?!?!

it's finally out in english subtitles on youtube and etc!
now it's gonna keep me busy.

Utada Hikaru - Flavour Of Life

ありがとう、と君に言われると
なんだかせつない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法
淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life x2
友達でも恋人でもない中間地点で
収穫の日を夢みてる　青いフルーツ
あと一歩が踏み出せないせいで
じれったいのなんのってbaby
ありがとう、と君に言われると
なんだかせつない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法
淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life x2
甘いだけの誘い文句
味っけの無いトーク
そんなものには興味をそそられない
思い通りにいかない時だって
人生 捨てたもんじゃないって
どうしたの？と急に聞かれると
ううん、なんでもない
さようならの後に消える笑顔
私らしくない
信じたいと願えば願うほど
なんだかせつない
「愛してるよ」よりも
「大好き」の方が
君らしいんじゃない？
The flavor of life
忘れかけていた人の香りを
突然思い出す頃
降りつもる雪の白さをもっと
素直に喜びたいよ
ダイヤモンドよりもやわらかくて
あたたかな未来　手にしたいよ
限りある時間を　君と過ごしたい
ありがとう、と君に言われると
なんだかせつない
さようならの後も解けぬ魔法
淡くほろ苦い
The flavor of life x2
おわり

a note i shouldn't have written

i knew this would happen one day. i anticipated it, and thus the pain is not too intense. somehow i had this strong feeling it would end up this way. perhaps you were right from the start. it should not have taken in that direction. but honestly i did not have any regrets. i thank you for giving me that chance, the experience, and most importantly the courage to go for what i really want.

but when i look back into the memories, i might still miss those very days. but the very least, i went for what i wanted. got myself burnt, hurt. 

i shall be a friend. and promise to stay by your side. and i will be a stronger person.

my 3 companions

my 3 companions since a young age. i remember buying the first one when my cousin had one. so i bought the entire collection including the little doggie keychains :) and i miss how me and my cousin would always play 'family roleplay' together with these doggies. HAHA.

those were the days.

the little nyonya

FINALLY, i got to witness the last episode of little nyonya after missing so many episodes, but thanks to youtube, i managed to catch up with the drama and eventually, got to know what was actually going on. i am glad mediacorp finally created a drama that is really worth watching, with all my favourite actors and actresses. woot woot!!

i really loved jeanette aw, although many often criticised her for cold attitude towards the public. hmmm. who cares anyway, if she can act, she can act. i really adore her role in little nyonya. and to be honest, i was a little surprised. the ending. didn't expect her to bring up robert zhang's son. oh my goodness. HAHAHA. hated his role in that show. ultimate bastard. but that just shows that he can act. he just has that villain look, that makes people wanna hate him.

now that the show has ended, channel 8 no longer has any tv serials that can draw my attention, so i shall retreat back to my cosy little corner of books and never-ending english serials. [yes, and at the cost of the rocketing electricity bills]

and today is the day you return, although i do not know if you will contact me or even drop me a message. but i hope you return safe and sound.

romancing home

hahaha. that is me and my doggie, Belle.

an expression of love.

been staying home nowadays. trying to stop myself from spending anymore money but it seems that efforts are rather futile. i am helping the economy to grow :) that's what singaporeans should do to support their own economy. haha.

my parent have been busy shopping around for their new year apparels while throwing their very own son together with their beloved daughter, also my pet, Belle. dang!

i would have died if not for the meeting just this evening at Causeway point, yet again. HAHA. but its okay, since there is a pasar malam near there. i have not eaten from pasar malams for god-knows-how-long man! and just mentioning ramly just makes me drool [tho now i am suffering from a slight tummyache from eating too much.. ]

i am weird. i am a chinese, but i hate chinese food. i adore western, indian, malay cuisine. just cant seem to bring myself to love chinese food? unless anyone can prove me otherwise. til now, the only chinese food i seemed to enjoy would only be the curry chicken, as well chicken rice. whahahah. my dad often says that i seemed to have an enemity with chickens. can't stop killing them.

ok back to the meeting. i am awlfully touched by your efforts to make a trip down from City hall all the way down to Woodlands aye, and then back to Tampines. seriously, its DAMN far. considering the fact that the waiting time in the bus/train and all. so i shall love you a tad bit more yea? haha.. and don't worry over those silly things and forget about that stalker friend. not worth fretting over.

enough said about others. shall return to my work. have yet to complete! the muse visits again, so i shall go on with my work! 

P.S: oh yes, go catch Let The Right One In. it's seriously good. simple story but well expressed. a word of precaution, those suffering from an overdose of Twilight would want to give it a miss first? or if you have those sweet notions that vampires are hot, handsome, drool-worthy guys, perhaps you wanna get those mindset fixed right first before catching the movie :) [tho i still would want the edward cullen sort of vampires around]

the reunion

our version of Bugsy

Lydia's new pet hamster. 

the long awaited reunion with Aunty Ivy and my cousins, Lydia Lam Dia Er aka the Pottey. HAHAHA. and laraine, lewis. it was a crazy meeting i must say. full of uncontrolled laughters or should i say roars. but strangely, i enjoy that feeling. its something i have lost throughout the years as i grow up. i lost that insane sense of humour as i grew older.

just look at the crazy shots we have taken. haha. kinda like the money pose that she did.

LOL. how ampt huh?

oh cuz, i want your postcards!!!! draw me a series, just for me?

pls pls pls??

yeah, and its amazing how Laraine, and Lewis have grown up. tho, they are still the same zany sort. but i guess it runs in the family.

oh, and aunty ivy. hmmm. never seem to grow old huh? hahahaha.

but she's such a dearie. will always remember the memories we had back at salem. totally priceless. oh, and i still have the tambourine. can't bear to tuck it away. 

the only regret is that we couldn't meet huiling and kaman up. if not, it would have been a full reunion with everyone. and should i say Seasonic Friends reunion? 

sounds familiar huh?

Belated gifts from 2008

yet another night that i seemed to be finding it quite hard to turn in, despite screamings from my mum. GOD SAVE ME man. she is really good at nagging.

i received both my purchases from ebay :) finally!! hahaha..

the first being the wallet from Prada [pictured above]. it's not for myself. just in case you thought i am a crazy person. why the need for so many different wallets. but then again, i wouldn't mind if i had another one more. :D it was purchased from a friend in based in Italy, so i can rest my mind at ease over authenticity issues. after all, ebay is a darn risky place for such purchases. but considering the fact that Singapore is such a lousy place for shopaholics, i shall have to make do with what i have! til i travel overseas..

well, the other is a personal purchase. something unexpected. but i bought it anyway. didn't cost me alot seriously. :) i am kinda going for bargains nowadays. somewhat like TARGET sort of bargain. it's a Yves Saint Laurent men dress shirt. something more to a yellow tone checkered top. been kinda addicted to Yves Saint Laurent ever since my parents brought me to the boutique. but their bags didn't really catch my attention. i kinda like the denim odeon sling tote, and the kahala in large. sigh. fancy paying a bomb over denim-fabric bags. shan't blabber on about bags. i do not want to enrol myself into a rehab for this bagaholic addiction. hahaha..

Kiss The Rain

This is something that i found on youtube whilst searching for Yiruma.



Kiss The Rain (Hienie Version)

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain.

Inspiring this

I was randomly surfing around, reading friend's friend's blogs and one particular one caught my attention. it's not the flashy pictures that he has posted. but the background music that he has placed in his blog.

The artist is a korean. They call him Yiruma. hahaha. funny how it sounds more japanese than korean. but his music is just stunning. captivating perhaps. i have been wanting to learn to play like that. his tunes are just so full of emotions.

previously i was introduced to his music from the movie, Twilight. that was when I heard his piece, River Flows In You. supposedly the track Bella's Lullaby originates from Yiruma's version. i really love Yiruma's version. Kinda heart wrenching, but the music is just so gentle. the funny thing is that his music does not need lyrics to convey what he has to say.

but here's a video of him singing.
a very heartfelt performance. and i really love his music!!!

that is what i refer to as truly inspirational. and that is what i need to keep my peace. pop and rnb is so over, i'm opening my heart to piano/inspirational pieces.

realising this

i had a late night chat with a friend on msn. strange enough, he's someone whom i have not met before. but the things that he had shared with me was as if i were someone familiar. and i am honoured to be able to be trusted. :D

his life is not like what i've been through. it's something you would never imagine. and i must say that i am impressed by how he managed himself throughout. really inspired me to really live my life well. and not just throw tantrums whenever i feel down.

i have found a friend :D

movies to catch

shan't copy and paste synopsis of the movie here, since its all available in wikipedia.
but what i have to say about this show?

i am going to watch it in the big screens [tho i have downloaded it.. :D]

yet another chick flick comedy. but Anne Hathaway is too pretty to ignore. since her role in The Devil Wears Prada, i was quite impressed by how she delivers every single role she acted in.

what more. this is a comedy. why not?

just tuned into the news right after little nyonya. funny how it worries me when i see clubs on fire, strikes in airports. and the worst is that you will be subjecting yourself to such dangers tomorrow.

maybe it's me worrying over nothing again since it doesn't bother you much.

your nonchalant view towards all that i've done has numbed me. the strange thing is that it draws me nearer. foolish as i may seem, i still chose to subject myself to this.

the start

2009 marks a brand new year
but strange enough, i didn't feel that same joy everyone did when the clock struck 12 that night.
hahaha. maybe i thought that it was just any other day, so why the celebration. oh well, but i did make an effort to return well wishes to all who did.

2008 was an eventful year for me, specifically the last few months. i managed to fulfill whatever that i did not manage to do before, mostly. and the last day of 2008 was quite well spent considering the company i was with. though the things we do may not be really special, it's the company i guess.

blogging. something i have not done on a personal basis for a really long time.
now that i am back at it, i guess i would be at it for quite some time.

and there's something else i would be working at.
my novel. HAHA. not on a professional basis. but just doing something i really love.
my source of inspiration dated all the way back in secondary school days - Sophia.
this person inspired me with her very own version of Harry Potter, and made me embark on my very own writing journey :)

perhaps these are good distractions to keep from me from worrying over needless matters.